Dealing with Conviction

How to deal with conviction? (based on my experiences)

Dealing with conviction, as for me, is very hard... i mean its either you follow or obey your conviction or just do the thing your ego wants you to do... its simply saying would you rather do the wrong way or the right way, when conviction comes in.

When you felt like you're being convicted syempre there's guilt and worries... coz you're in the dilemma of making a decision. Mahirap sya talaga... i mean alam mo na tama pero the question would be... gagawin mo ba yung tama?

I've heard and seen many stories na ganito, convicted sila but still di pa rin nila ginagawa yung tama... at syempre kasama din ako sa kanila... and a brother told me and we jsut to seek God for wisdom and his spirit to fill us so we can make a right decision... and that's my prayer din sa mga under in this situation...

And I agree na mahirap talaga... like for example sa relationship... mahirap magdecide kasi you know na both you eh masasaktan... especially na una palang alam mo na mali... kasi emotions lang nag nandun at you don't know kugn will ba ni God.
Another example would be, when you're convicted dahil someone talked to you... your Small group leader or a friend.. sabi nga di ba..."A man's wisdom gives him patience; it is to his glory to overlook an offense" Proverbs 19:11 (NIV).. we get offended maybe kasi tinamaan tayo.. but basically after being offended... are we gonna do the right thing? o maiilang tayo sa tao na nagsabi ng ganun... and still do the thing na gusto natin... on my part, minsan na-ooffend ako sa mga ganyan but I've learned that.. para sa akin din naman un eh...

Battling out with conviction, again as for me, is when we just simply pray to Godm and ask for his guidance, plus reading the word of course... nandun lahat eh... all the answers are found in that book... the BIBLE.

Lessons learned... it's been a rough but refreshing week...

While everybody na kilala ko was on their vacation... grabe naman yung nangyari sa akin... I spent my Holy Week sa pagiisip lang... madaming dineal at ni-reveal si God sa akin... it started tuesday.. I talked to Kuya Jam, i mean i really need help during that time... and iba talaga yung gift ni kuya Jam... convicted ka pero di masakit.. pero may tama talaga hehehe.. dun lahat nagsimula... I asked God for my sensitivity on his word, yung mga gusto nya sabihin sa akin... the following night..
Wednesday na... I was so convicted.. i was crying then... Dineal ako ni God sa area of forgiveness and bitterness... kaya that night i texted some of my friends to ask for forgiveness as well as I let go na rin yung mga bitterness sa loob ko... If God can forgive... eh pano pa kaya tayo...
The following days, God revealed to me different visions... and sobra ako in awe... and syempre I was in the stage of handling it hard kasi.. sabay sabay sya hehehe...
Saturday naman... i talked to some of my friends.. one thing lang na nalungkot at sobrang na-depressed at convicted ako is dun sa isang conversation ko... I just wished na din na nangyari yun... but i think God let it happened.. so both of us will have to learned on dealing such things then... though both of us handle the situation differently... right now I'm praying na dahil sa nangyari.. mas maging ok kami, mas mabuild yung trust namin rather than ma-offend kami sa mga nangyari... isa kasi sya sa pinagkakatiwalaan ko... and i respect that person...
Sunday... i''ve done something bad this time.. i was consumed by the offenses na nangyari sa akin nung saturday... and that was wrong!!! until I realized during the p&w ng 5n7... as part of the team... i need to let go that feeling... kasi mahirap magworship if there's something na mali sa heart mo...
Monday... as in ngayon!!!... i just realized na i started dealing my sablays ng tama.. and i need to end it din ng tama... and not to start a new predicament ulit...

Lessons Learned... i thank God kasi madami akong natutunan.. though most of them eh medyo mabigat at kelangan ko matutunan in a hard way but I liked it... I've learned din na above all God should be the first... plus hindi lang basta may quiet time ok na... still a quality time with God.. is more important... and an open rebuke is better that hidden love as well as we shouldn't take offenses seriously... coz God is in control.. and we just have to ask and seek God as we go on in this journey.

I Thank God for the Music...

I can't imagine my life now if I had decided not to audition for the music team 1 1/2 years ago, simple because, I really don't have any background in singing then, and if you would ask me on what age did I started singing (formally), man! it was only the time when I passed on the audition.

Though I've been singing already prior to the audtion. but that's only either my teacher/ professor would require it or when i'm with my friends and most of the time, I'm singing together with a group... coz I don't even have a guts to say that 'Hey! I could sing' then...

But God changes everything... He gave confidence to sing, thus He called me into this ministry.

I never though that I would be singing in front of a crowd...

I've been singing in the ministry for almost a year now, and honestly I enjoyed it... I get a chance to meet new friends, musicians, mentors, and I got to serve God of course...

And I thank God for that...
I thank god for this gift...
I thank god for the music...

For me, music is a gift, music is one way of expressing our feelings towards to anything. Its another way of expressing ourselves and our emotions, and I'm a testimony to that. Another thing is, music is something that all the people can relate with, it may differ from genres but all of which have the same purpose, and that is for the listeners, as well as the musicians, singers, and composers can be able to tell others on what they really feel, thus, on what they really want to say.

As for me, through music, I get to expressed my inner most thoughts from which I'm having a hard time on showing it to others then.

I also met my best buddies... my brothers that I'm really thankful for, not just for their company... but for everything that we have been sharing,

and also through music, I know i have changed... for the better of course... i mean, i usually have this feeling of being inferior then, that some people don't see it and that's a big deal for me... but now, as I've said.. I've changed...

Lastly, I thank God for the music simply because through this, I am humbled before him, I am alwyas being reminded of how great He is and how awesome He is, and I'm grateful for what He had done to me, that's why I wrote this blod, coz I just want to share how music changed my life and that I'm blessed to have this gift.

Now, I just want to encourage those people who have given this kind of gift to use and take care of it... because God gave it and I believe that there is a purpose for that gift... just like what God's purpose did to me...

Again, I thank god for the music....