Life is meaningless!!!

Uncertainty... Choices... Decision... What's next?
As they say "either you make it or break it"

People have millions of choices to deal with everday... through their lifetime... from the
simple ones like; which clothes should I wear today?, where will I eat today?, to the tough
ones like, Is this the girl whom I'm gonna spend my life with?, would I choose to follow my
heart or choose whatever the situation tells me to do? (Woah! even in writing this blog..
I'm having a hard time choosing these questions...

Basically we all live in a world that is full of choices and decisions, even God gave us
this gift called FREEWILL, and it's sad to say that most of us usually take this gift for
granted.

When pride overcomes our emotions, thus our decisions, we easily decide based on what we
think that's seems right for us. When people rebuke or simply made a bad comment on us ---
we usually say "Eh ito and tingin ko na tama eh" (This is what I think that is right for me), then eventually in the end the decisions we just made leads us to our own destruction.

A Wise king once had said

"There is a way that seems right to a man, but in the end it leads to death"
Proverbs 14:12,

saying that there are really tons of ways for us to choose... for us to decide... but if we
decide basically on what we just feel, based on our emotions, or what we think that is right
for us without asking God then it would end up into just nothing. Why? simply because,

"Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails"
Proverbs 19:21

Yes, we can choose to have it our way, but it's the matter of how God had planned it for us
If we don't seek God on every decisions we have to make, then it would be just meaningless.

I for me have experiences on this, there are many decisions in the past that I became to proud of myself and basically don't mind asking God if it is for me or not, and in the end I have become the victim of my own decisions.

I got to earn a lot, I got power, I got famous, yet I always felt incomplete, not until I got to know God and that not all my plan... not all that I have achieved is completely in accordance to His will, which brings me into conclusion;

WITHOUT GOD, OUR DECISIONS WOULD BE ALL MEANINGLESS
WITHOUT GOD, THE WAY TOWARDS A COMPLETE LIFE IS MEANINGLESS

Life is a messed!!

I was browsing my old blogs in multiply and blogspot (Well they're all the same hehehe) and I was fascinated by my entries... It goes to show that everyday, all of us will experience hardships, failures, successes, triumphs, etc... everyday is truly a learning experience for us...

It's been quite sometime since I wrote my last blog... and I got convicted by it... hehehe.. I miss blogging hehehe...

Anyway, here goes for my new blog...

I've been in a situation right now on where I'm really on the verge of giving up... so many things happened for the past few days... and I think this would be the result of a month long dilemma...

People changes... People have lots of differences... And if we would think of it negatively... Life is a messed!! Why on earth we have these kind of people? Why are we like this?

Basically, we all live in an imperfect world.. thus making us not really perfect... We have different views, opinions, likes, dislikes, attitude, name it.. anything... but I guess these things makes our world go round... these things makes us who we are today.. the question would be.. Should we contented by these things?

Right now I'm in a situation on where I really can't decide.. a clouded mind... tired.. and confused about what's happening in my life...

But everyday I'm being reminded that I should be secured.. I am skillful.. I am JOHN PAUL..
No matter what's going on in my environment today... I have a big God that runs my life... I have God that shows me the way...

Going back.. yes we live on a imperfect world.. but we have a perfect God that guides the way... No matter how rude other people can be... how situations makes us down... We have given the authority to change things... to decide on either we should go and and continue a messed-up life OR finally get up and continue to strive more and be a better person... thus know who we are!!! know are security.. that our security is not on other people.. but on God...

our identity is in Christ and not on what other people think of us...

People will fail us.. people will disappoint us.. why? simply because we are not perfect.. that is why we should look on people... we shouldn't based our life on them..

If we take a look on the positive areas of our indifference... changes.. and all.. well, Life is not really a messed!!! Situations happened for us... People changes for us to learn.. for us to be strong.. for us to open our eyes and see the reality... see our own mistakes.. see our own capacity...

People will fail us... but God won't
People changes... but God won't
People is not the way... but God is the way!

Unconventional Birthday!

First and foremost, I'd like to thank everyone who texted, leave a message on my guestbook, and personally greeted me on my birthday. I also would like to thank the Kids Church, t. irene, t. edit, kuya jules, and the gang for giving me a party... I really appreciate it... Honestly I'm honored and humbled with you guys... to kuya Armin, thank you, to kuya Jam, the worship ministry members, and to all the people na honestly di ko kilala but they greeted me..sobrang thank you talaga..

Dapat pala may gig ako today... grabe si God.. akala ko wala na talaga.. but right on my birthday... an old friend called me and wanted me to perform sa timog ave. well hindi ako nakapagcommit tonight.. but I'm just thankful kasi I got a confirmation kay God...

Dapat din uwi na ako pero I chose to stay... kaya ayun.. yun pala the Kids Church gave me a party hehehe...

I'm 25 years old na!!! whew!!! grabe.. marrying age na hehehe...

Now why is it unconventional?.. well its weird kasi at some point di ako naging masaya... mixed emotions... i can't help but cry sa mga nangyari this day... honestly i didn't like the fact na may mga tao na very insensitive... hehehe ako naman ata yung over sensitive hehehe.. but I just let God na lang..

I appreciated what kuya jules had said when he prayed for me..."God will give the desires of my heart, and what I need is to rely and trust God for everything and ask..." another thing that struck me was "You we're important and not insignificant.. you have a talent.. you have gift" grabe yung encouragement...

I've learned to let go and let God na lang talaga... yes I am offended this day.. but honestly, I let God na lang... and I'm more thankful sa mga blessings at sa mga tao who were there... who witness my ups and downs.. who were with me all the time...

I thank God for eveything, for blessing me with much things that I need, for giving me friends who truly I can depend on, for giving me my family, for giving me another chance.. another year... to change and to live...

Choose LIFE!!!