When everything is meaningless...

When everything fails... God is always there!!!

I've been through a lot last week... unexpected things... unexpected circumstances... and I so ashamed of my response through this... pride... anger... insecurity... lost.. and many negative things... and i'm sorry for it.... I'm was consumed by the negative things that happened...

But.. I've realized that.. when everything is meaningless... God is always there.. and I keep on hanging to His word... I may have forgotten Him, but never He has forgotten me... God loves me... and even you!

Above all the negative things that happen.. I ask for forgiveness to all the people who got into this mess.. because of a nonsense fight... nonsense talks... Sorry for all the shortcomings.. sorry to all the words that I have said... sorry for all the gm's (group message)... sorry for my ruthless actions...

I should have set an example... I should have understand everything...

But I got lost for the past 2 days... the only thing I can remember is the feeling that during the P&W of 5n7... is there is only person that I could think of... that's God... I surrender it out to Him... I repented to Him... and I'm sorry for all the things that I've done...

Honestly right now, I'm broken and wasted, but God restored me right away!!! and I'm thankful to all of my friends who rebuke me and gave me advices and comforted me... slowly I'm beginning to realized more things... more priorities...

I can't wait for the new and restored John Paul... much better and stronger one... and only God can help me... and change me... and I let His will to be done in my life right now...

Again I'M SORRY...

God bless you all!!!